wrecked

its amazing how the sea or ocean works
with all its strength and tenderness
beauty and sometimes horror...
that is my life summed up...
Never knowing when the high tide is coming or when the low tide will arrive...or the strength of the wave...the only knowledge i have is in God...which is all i need but i still struggle...b/c one one of the most important people in my life was taken in what seemed in seconds...i have stories to share and a testimony to speak but the one thing i would love its to be able to share moments with the love that i lost...no one can understand or fathom...unless they have experience what i have...no words or thoughts or hugs and kisses i receive feels empty...
The only on is God...i know he is there but it is hard to let Him in and sometimes hear his tender voice...There is beauty in what i am walking through in the fact that i have shared and impacted many people with my story...but wishing i didn't have the story to tell...I know God never gives me anything i cant handle...but i am the edge sometimes of just wanted to become a hermit...which i would never do but sometimes feel like it...
He is in control